The weekend

The weekend is now over and that's a sad thing. I got to spend it with a bunch of good friends and with my lovely boyfriend. This was the first Front Bench Retreat for TUXIS and it was awesome. Not a lot of work was done, but there was a lot of community building and just chilling out with the rest of the crazy parliamentarians. Anyways, this is being written a little later at night than I usually. I'm usually not so coherent at this time at night, but I know I won't be able to sleep that well tonight. I got to spend last night in Jason's arms and I know I'll be missing that. I'm addicted to that boy and that can't be good. It's now hard to go for a few days without seeing him. It used to be fine when we'd see each other once every week, week and a half. Now that just doesn't cut it. Just seeing him 2 or 3 times sucks. I want to see him everyday. I can't though so I need to stop complaining about it. I love him so much and just want to start a life with him now. But that is way too soon. I'm not even 19 for another 2 months. We've been going out for 3 and a half months. That shouldn't be enough time for me to come to conclusions like this. I've just never felt like this for anyone and I don't think I ever will again. It's semi scary but it's my life. I love what has been given to me and I thank God for blessing me with everything. I grown so much in these last 7/8 months. I've figured out what I need and want in my life. I never thought that my religion and spirituality would be such a factor in things, but it is. Jason hasn't necessarily tought me that, but he has made me see that aspect in my life. I'm now starting to embrace it for what it is and it has made me stronger in the long run. I'm able to see what I need to get done and what I need to let go of as well. I was able to get my room clean, after living in such a disaster area for almost a year. It was hard to begin with because of reminders of Grandma and then reminders of Esben. One day though that just didn't factor anymore. I wanted it clean and when I came across memories I just let them come and wash over me. It was a release to do that. I was then able to move on in all aspects of my life and start living my life like I wanted too. I still have problems with my parents sometimes, but that's just part of life because I'm trying to grow up and gain my independance. I think I'll try to get to sleep now because I do have classes tomorrow morning. Hope everyone had an amazing weekend and God Bless.