Ugh... stress

Well I really haven't been here in a while, cause I've been so busy. School and other stuff has just been so stressful lately. But all in all most everything has been good. I'm again playing Tier 3 soccer! So much fun and I can play with people more my skill level and not just any old houseleague player. My grandfather was also in the hospital for a while which was so not cool and I guess it really has made me a little down at the moment. It's not fair that it had to happen right before grad and now Nan and Bawby (my grandparents) can't come. It just really sucks. Also my relationship has been interesting lately. It's all good and everything one moment and then sometimes it just feels like he doesn't want to have anything to do with me. He just removes himself and is distant. He tells me that I mean a lot to him but it just doesn't feel like it sometimes. It's so strange. Anyways he's moving to a new house this weekend and they (him and his family) asked me to come help them but then they didn't need my help. It just really is not something I needed this weekend. I had planned on going to Vegreville to see my friend in a play but then I was asked to help move so I cancelled those plans. Then on Friday I'm told I'm not needed. That just went and blew everything. I had so much stuff planned and the everything went down the toilet. I really am not enjoying my life right now. Everything is just really wierd. I feel like I'm spinning out of control and there's nothing I can do about it. Arg.... well anyways I guess I just need to do something to keep my mind of everything. God Bless!