My life has been taken away

So thursday was my last day of high school classes forever. It was also the end of my 6 and a half month relationship with Esben. It was probably the worst planned thing ever in the history of man. It's right before exams and he knew very well how stressed out I am and the fact that my parents are not at home. So all in all I have to deal with this myself. I've sofar cried myslef to sleep two nights in a row. Who knew that this would hurt so much? I don't even have enough courage to flip my claddagh around again. I'm just in shock I guess. I never though that this would happen so soon. As Christina pointed out, he did commit a bang and run. I feel so used. All my relationships seem to be that. They end right after I trust the person with everything. I gave him basically all my life. He's taken a part of me with him and I don't think I'll be able to regain that for a very long time. He's leaving for Denmark in 5 days now, so it's almost like what he's doing is cowardly. He couldn't even give us the chance to try a long distance relationship. I guess it just wouldn't work for people who are "just friends". He said that's all we'll ever be. I guess all those times he said he loved me were lies. Everything just contradictes itself now. All the pictures I have of us are just so nice and we look so happy. I guess we were until lately and I didn't even know. Where did my sixth sense go? My empathy is leaving me and I can't seem to know what people are feeling anymore. I'm going down hill and I need to stop and turn around. Come back up the hill, except I can't do that by myself and right now I have no one here for me. Everyonr is out and I can't get a hold of anyone. I may sound like a 6 year old, but I want my mum. I haven't had someone to just lay in their arms and cry my heart out. I haven't had a chance and everything is just so pent up inside and I feel like I'm going to burst. My heart has been ripped out, steamrolled and chopped to pieces. I the words of A Knight's Tale, "The pieces of my broken heart are so small, they could pass through the eye of a needle." I guess I'll leave off here and just try to pass the time until my mum comes home or I hear from someone who I can talk to. So long and Farewell. God Bless.