Long time gone

It's been two months since my last post. Much has happened since then. I'm working full time and that is really very taxing. I work as a receptionist/accounts recievable person at Pegasus Paper. I've worked there for two years and at the end of August, no matter what the decision is with school, I'll be quitting. I've been thinking of leaving one week earlier than I planned so I can work at the ranch for a week. That would be absolutely awesome. I really enjoy the environment of camp and wish that I have the opportunity to do so. Also not seeing Jason as much as I would like is draining. He is my life. Not being able to talk to him every couple of days isn't the best for me. I keep things bottled up within me and don't talk about them. The one person I really have to talk to most of the time is Jason. Without being able to communicate with him for a while just stresses me out. Of course the music that I am listening to lately hasn't been helping much. It could be considered depressing sometimes. I know I've broken out into tears when some songs start to play, but that's life. The lyrics touch me. My stars are changing, I feel it. I've been told I'm growing up. I'm not the child I once was. I guess I haven't been in a while. My life has been a broken road up until a year ago. Things started to change and I started to see things through different eyes. I've found out what life is about. Not the answer to the question of life, I believe we don't find that out until we pass on, but an explanation of what we need. I hated the courses I was to major in, in University so I quit. I've since then thought of what would make me happy. I've picked theatre arts as my goal. I want to be on Broadway some day and hopefully this will lead me there, and that Broadway is in the plans that God has for my life. If not, then I'll live. Not getting into theatre arts would be saddening but I still have a plan if it all falls through. I would probably end up doing bilingual business at NAIT. Yes, back to something completely opposite to drama, but that's alright. It's using french and that is important to me. If I have to work all this year then I'll be applying to airlines. Then I'll hopefully use my french and keep it in practice. I think I've rambled on long enough. Time for me to go and may God Bless all of you.