Getting back on track... maybe

So here I am at work and am a little bored. I'm trying to get my life on track again. I know it's been two months since I had my breakup but I guess you could say I took a holiday from my problems in July. At my grandparents I had really no reminders except grad pictures that were shown to relatives. When I got back home in August it was a different story. I have so many things that remind me of him. I put most in a box but some I do still need to keep around because of their practical use. I keep being haunted in my dreams and I wish that would go away. I might have solved it though. I didn't have any dreams concerning him last night after I fell asleep to Enya. I think I'll continue that and keep it as an experiment. I do hope this pain goes away soon. I need to get myself back in order. I also need to find my identity again. I was part of 'Esben and Meaghan' for to long and now I just need to be Meaghan again. My friend reminded me of what Stevie Nicks wrote in a song, 'I afraid of changes, cause I built my life around you.' It's exactly that. My life was built around my relationship for that amount of time because that what I build my foundations on, emotions. If anyone knows a way of how to find one's own identity again please let me know. I need to get mine back and start to live life again and quit living in the past. I need to get on with my life like he has gotten along in his life. Separation is good at the right moment and this just is the right moment. I need to set myself straight and get ready for the new chapter in my life, University. It's going to be something new and exciting. I'm bound to make new friends and find some more direction in my life. It'll be a time for exploration on my own. I'm on my way to getting my life back and that's exactly what I need. New experiences and strange places sounds like a good place to start. Well I've got to run, God Bless!