Revelations

I realized over the last week I guess that Jason is the best thing that's happened to me. Just thinking about my past lets me see that. I'm treated so well by him and I feel safe and comfortable with him. Things are progressing fairly quickly but it doesn't bother me at all. I feel like I've been in this relationship since last october when I met him. It's strange but it's true. Never have I ever felt for anyone, what I feel for Jason. We were out last night and talking about all sorts of things. Something brought up last names and I mentioned something about how my da jokes about me wanting to change mine to NicGregor since that means 'Daughter of Gregor'. Then my last name wouldn't mean 'Son of Gregor'. Anyways, that came up and Jason mumbled something which basically entailed the fact that he could easily change my last name. Definately a comment about marriage since that was what we all were talking about at the table. Usually something like that would just freak me out but it didn't. I felt really good about it. I don't know what's different about this boy but I certainly don't want this to end. Jason and I both expressed our want for this relationship to last a long time. I really hope it evolves to more than what we have right now. We seem to be getting the comment of finally when people find out we're dating. I guess it's true since there has been that strong connection since October confrence last year. Things are definately looking different in my life. I've got a such a wonderful relationship. I guess I just care really deeply for Jason, my leannan. I might even love him, but lets not get too ahead of ourselves. God Bless.

Sick as a dog...

So, I am sick again but is that any surprise? I haven't had a cold since April so I guess it was my time to get one. Everything other than that is going well I guess. Everything is blurred by the cold so I don't have a clear view of anything. Anyways, even with being sick I am still a fairly happy girl, it's been a month since Jason and I started going out and it seems to be going well. I haven't had an extreme blow up yet and hopefully one won't come too soon. I'm just wondering if he thinks I'm more of a docile person when it comes to temper, but then again he saw a glimpse of my volatileness when I got my photo radar ticket on his birthday last Tuesday. Life is interesting and keeps throwing curve balls my way. I guess I'll just hold on tight and hope I don't get thrown off this wild ride called life. Things keep changing all around me and there is nothing I can do about it. I just want things to settle down, but with my lifestyle I don't think it will until the day I start pushing up daisies.

My last midterm was this morning (finally done!!!!!!!!!). I hope I did well on it. If I didn't, ah well, that's life. School is getting thougher as the end of the semester is coming around. Now it's time to start studying for finals. It's way to scary for me. Life is life and I'm going to go try to get healthy before conference this weekend. God Bless.